Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Home - Brian McKnight




Thinking back when we first met
I remember what you said
You said you'd never leave me
I let go of your hand
Built my castle in the sand
But now I'm reachin' out again
And I'm not letting go
Till you

Hold me
Mold me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
See, I gotta find me way back home
So why don't you
Shape me
make me
Wah me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way
Back home

Master upon my knees i pray
I just want to be the clay
Put your arms around me
Place my life in your hands
Lord, I know I'm just a man
I know you understand
This time I'm not letting go
Till you

Anoint me
Appoint me
Somstimes I feel so alone
See, I gotta find my way back home
So why don't you
Chastise me
Baptize me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way

'Cause I'm lost and alone
I've been wandering
Long enough to know
Humbly I search for you
And I'm not gonna rest
Till you

Choose me
Use me
Sometimes I feel so alone
I'm on my way back home

So why don't you
Direct me
Bless me
Wash me whiter then the snow
I'm on my way
Back home

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Trail Blazer's Night

12.07.2007
I know I decided not to go to Baguio. Kaya lang, kinonsensya ako ni Kuya Francis. He'll be paying for my registration. Hay naku ewan! Di ako makadecide. Pero since sa kanya ang bayad, Why not! Sayang ang opportunity. Nanjan na eh... Luckily, pumayag si mama.

12.08.2007
Umaayon talaga ang pagkakataon sa akin. Ewan ko lang. It turns out na God really want me to go there. Our last 3 classes was cancelled. Tinatamad na yung mga teachers na magturo so it means... Gotta go!

3:45pm Lumuwas na kami: Jr [of course], James [hndi dw ppnta], K. Francis, Joan, Cristy, Reymark, and of course our ever patient driver, Kuya Jonathan Pascua.
6:00pm Welcome Baguio! Kain muna, nagrereklamo na yung mga tiyan namin...
6:30pm sa boarding house ni Kuya Frances [mg-oojt na kc xa]
7:10pm APTS! so beautiful. parang subdivision sa ibang country. Ang LAMIG!

-------ANG PAGKIKITA---------
We enter the hall ng hindi pa nagreregister. Ang kapal! tapos pinalabas kami. Ang paglabas namin, BOOM! Wala pong sumabog. Nakasalubong namin sila. OH MY GOLLIE! Kumapit ako ng sobra kay Reymark. I feel like an idiot that time... GRrrr >:[. but i suddenly realized, he's not the reason why i came there.... so i went inside holding some paper bag [pandesal or pansit sa Midtown], brave and cool like nothing happens... We shook hands. That's how we meet again. Like nothing happens... Play it cool. And to my surprise [exaggerated], all of his friends KNOW me! Dedma. So what? Sikat ako eh... Yabang!

--------THE PROPHECY----------
God is so great! He planned it all! From deciding to actually being there. He has a purpose. One paster prayed for me and prophesied for me. I can't hardly believe what my ears was telling me. It's too much to contain! I tell you [who ever is reading this] when God tells you this things i've heard, you'll tremble with fear, gratitude, mercy and with such honor. Keep listening to God's voice. He has something really GREAT to ALL of you IF you'll only LISTEN and OBEY.... Everybody jump around in the house of God!

God bless to all and may your days will be as abundant as Christmas!^_____~

In Your Grace




How could someone like you, love someone like me
Full of mistakes and insecurity,
When you look in my heart, tell me what do you see, that makes you
love me so?
Is it the nails that pierced in your side?Or the moment you dropped your
head and you died,
For a sinner like me, you gave up your life;
It's time to let you know

Bridge

Lord I, surrender
And I give you, all i have
It's not much but I hear you, calling
So hear I am
Standing in Your Grace

(Small talk By Kirk)

All:Lord I, surrender, I give you
Solo:All i have
All:It's not much but I hear you
Solo:Calling
All:Calling
Solo:So here I am
All:Standing in your Grace...Grace...
Solo:So here I am , Standing in your Grace.

Wake up and Pay Attention




[Valeria Andrews]
If you wanna be somebody
If you wanna go somewhere
You better wake up and pay attention
Hey...

So you think you've got the answers
To all that lies ahead
Well, in my mind I thought the same one time
And I hear you spouting much talk
'Bout how you ain't being lead
Ain't no one telling you what to do
But attitude will catch up with you
And keep you from your destiny

CHORUS:
If you wanna be somebody
If you wanna go somewhere
You better wake up and pay attention
When the time is now or never
To make your dreams come true
You gotta wake up and pay attention

[Ryan Toby]
I ain't buyin' no more lyin'
'Cause truth don't cost a thing
Denyin' what's inside's too much to pay
It's 'bout sweatin' without stressin'
There ain't no other way
You know you can't get much without much givin'
Oh, expect from yourself and you'll respect yourself
You control your destiny

CHORUS X 2

Time to wake up, everybody
Time to wake up, children
Wake up, everybody
(ooh...)

CHORUS

If you wanna be somebody (wake up)
Go somewhere
Wake up and pay attention
When the time is now or never
To make your dreams come true
You gotta wake up and pay attention
[fades out]

Monday, December 3, 2007

Never Getting Over with Christmas

To most of us, Christmas is the busiest time of the year. Everyone is busy preparing for the most awaited season. Houses are filled with decors, lanterns and Christmas trees; musical lights are turned on; even the street children change their “palimos po” into “Merry Christmas”.

Christmas had brought a great impact to the world as well as touches ordinary people. Sadly, many people are more preoccupied with the star of Bethlehem rather than the Bethlehem-born whom the star was leading.

This is the reason why despite our efforts to really enjoy the season, we often end up tired, bored and worried. More so when the celebration is over. Many of us often end the celebration by counting the expenses we incurred during the season, and worse, thinking of how to pay them off. When things are all over, there is always the feeling of letdown.

But not so with the shepherds that heard the Good News about Christ’s birth in Luke 2:17-20. After seeing the child, they went back praising and glorifying God for all that they had heard and seen. They kept on pondering in their hearts the things they have witnessed.

How come we don’t experience what the shepherds experienced? Why do we not glorify and praise God? Why are we not filled with joy?

The sad thing is the most of us celebrate Christmas without the celebrant. Our situation is similar to the story of the father who was to celebrate his 50th birthday.

It was the father’s 50th birthday so his family thought of throwing him a surprise party.

“I’ll cook your Daddy’s favorite dishes,” said the mother.
“I’ll clean the house,” volunteered the eldest son.
“I’ll take care of the decors,” followed the sister.
“I’ll make a special card for Daddy,” enthused the youngest child. So each of them went to attend to their own chores.
They were busy as bees when the father arrived from the office earlier than usual. But not one of them bothered to ask why. They were all too careful not to give him any hints. The man headed to the kitchen where his wife is busy cooking. He asked her for a glass of water but she didn’t want to be disturbed from work.
She said to her husband, “Can you just get it yourself? The ref is very near you anyway.”
The man went out of the kitchen with his glass of water and saw his eldest son cleaning the sala.
“Son, can you look for my slippers?” he requested. But the son was quick to reply.
“Let Jun do the searching, Dad. I can’t get myself out of this mess.”
The father turned around and he saw his daughter. He asked,
“Oh, were you able to make the phone calls I asked you to do? It’s very important that I get in touch with those people.” His daughter nodded her head,
“Don’t worry Dad. I will do it but not now please.”
As he made his way to his bedroom, he passed through the half-opened room of his youngest son Jun. he noticed that Jun quickly hid something inside when he saw him coming inside.
“How are you doing, Jun,” he greeted his son. “Would you like to tell Daddy what you did during the day?” jun shrugged his shoulders,
“Oh, nothing much. I think I’ll go out to play with my friends.” Then he quickly ran out of the room. The father then proceeded to his own room
Several hours later, it was time to pull out the surprise. The dinner is ready. The house is perfectly clean and decorated. Beside the cake stood a big colorful birthday card. Together, all four of them silently went to Daddy’s room. They knocked several times but nobody was answering so they opened the door themselves. “Surprise!” they all shouted together.
But it was not a pleasant surprise for all of them. For there in the room lay the birthday celebrant dead and cold. Apparently, he was not really feeling well so he decided to go home and just to be with his family. Sadly, they were all too busy to take time.
They found a note on top of the father’s desk that reads, “Even without anybody telling me, I know you are all busy preparing for my birthday. But my day would have been more special if all of you simply spent time with me.

12.04.2007
This is one of his comments: saturday at d... bagio..w8 kita..ok...misss you po...

Urgh! Stick it to my tongue! Too Cheezzyyy. Does he even know why we are going to Baguio. Can anybody please tell him. This is not the best time to "meet". Looking forward for the event, not when we meet??! Duh. Gladly, I'm still undecided...

Saturday, December 1, 2007

pain of answered prayer

12.01.2007 - Saturday

Just this Sunday, we had a Medical Mission in our church. Everybody was very thankful for the medical professionals who gave their time to us. And everything was free.

NARS - a story about a group of students taking up Nursing and overcoming their personal problems. Ella[Jennelyn Mercado], the unfortunate in the group, smitten the heart of Liam[Jon Avila], new member of their group; Noel, gay friend of the group, Eunice, a lonely fellow despite the riches she has, and Ate Marissa, a second courser who happen to have marriage problem. I like the movie. It somehow took my attention of what I really like at first. To earn "dollars". But then as I get weak on the paperwork assigned to us, the more I am encouraged to pursue this course. Not because for the determination to go abroad, but to fulfill the forgotten word: SERVICE.

Cheering competition ngayon sa plaza and I don't wanna go there. I'm tired. Thank God our Rizal-fanatic teacher dismissed us early.

Waahhhhh!! Exam na naman next week! And the TRAIL BLAZERS NIGHT in Baguio convention center. And still undecided... But God knows I want to go. But still He has plans. I prayed earnestly to hear some answer. The more days pass, and that day is fast approaching, the answer started to fill my heart with sadness. Money - insufficient. Time - hectic. At isa pa, JR wasn't aloud to come too. And if mom found it too, I'm 100% sure she'll never allow me to go too... :-(

Selwyn Hughes was right. The more we yearn for an answer, the more the answer pierce this hoping heart. It feels like it going to steal that -only- hope. So right now, I'm going to change my prayer. "Dear God, help me accept the answer you are going to give... Help me, please..."

In conclusion, I might not see Philip [Emo? Yayks! Di nya bagay.Be real, men! I like guys who are honest about themselves. Not trying-to-be's]. I guess that would be a great answer to my prayer. And on what I said, I'm hoping he'll never will have a chance to find this blog. Speaking, no communications yet. Aba! Parang ginagantihan ata ako nito ah! Sige, maghintayan kami...

*Eeeiiiii! My lil bro [Dan], is going to be th MC on Kuya Jovan's wedding. Exciting!
*Today is Jez's bday.

December is here but still no spirit of Christmas. I guess my ninong and ninang got sick and forgot it's Christmas. I hope they get well soon.^____~